It was a hot day, my son hadn’t slept so well and I had a million errands to run. I was exhausted by the time dinner was ready and I had to leave for my evening class. I usually always look forward to my classes, but today I felt the deepest resistance.
So I dragged my tired body to my studio and had some time to light the candles and put on music before the students would arrive. While I was waving around a palo santo stick, wondering how on earth I would be able to teach a dynamic class, I remembered something my own yoga mentor Shauna told me once:
‘I’m not a man, I’m not a woman, I’m not a person, I’m a teacher. I can give only what I have’.
Immediately I felt my muscles relax and my overactive mind get at ease.
This little mantra had always helped me to teach in those early days of teacherhood when I was too scared or nervous to stand in front of a group of yogis who had a certain expectation of what was to come.
I forgot about it as maybe I didn’t need it as much as I did then, but these busy days of not sleeping enough, taking care of my son all day and then teaching at night have been the most challenging ones on my teaching path so far.
But this mantra reminded me that I’m not the drama that I created in my mind during the day, I’m not my tired body.
I’m not even a mother during the hours that I teach. I’m a teacher. I’m there to serve whoever made the effort to come to class. I’m in service of people who are craving just as much relaxation as I do. I’m there to guide them back to their body, breath and heart. Nothing more, nothing less.
So on those days when I’m really too exhausted for anything, I remember that I can only give what I have that day.
And ironically enough, those are the best classes. The classes where all the extra stuff just falls away and I trust that yoga works. I trust that guiding the breath through a simple sequence will reconnect us to something bigger. And it always does.
So, next time you don’t feel like teaching, remember you are enough. You got this. Do you have a yoga mentor?
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